Dear Heshy,
My marriage was dull, my kids were always acting up, my job sucked and I didn’t like the basement apartment in Monsey much. The only freedom I seemed to have was in my office, where I would bide my time by searching for pornography. I know I sound terrible, but let me explain. Some people like Heshy, for instance, have biking as their outlet. I have a friend that likes learning and I have another friend that enjoys a good steak. I had no outlet until I started getting interested in pornography.
Like any regular yeshiva guy I had looked at my fair share of porn magazines, usually in two or three minute rustling of the pages in a bathroom stall in yeshiva. It wasn’t really freedom when you risked being caught by one of your friends or the dorm councilor. This was different and it seemed like a perfectly normal outlet for me. My wife was pregnant with our third child and she never quite lost the weight from her first pregnancy, so whenever I read those articles in mishpacha magazine that referred to women as frumpy, I could really relate to them.
As the story goes, I really became addicted to pornography. There wasn’t much work to do and I had my own office, so I just surfed the web for more and more exotic porn sites until one day a friend of mine told me that he would pay me if I could find frum pornography. He told me that he just knew there had to be some sites that catered to the frum crowd. He had heard of this bais yaakov girls gone wild video among other things and I started searching.
One of the first things that came up when I typed frum porn into google was a post written by you on Jewcy and through that I found your site. I frequently came across interesting sites when searching for different varieties of porn, but nothing like this. Here was some guy describing what he thought frum porn should be and there was something about cholov yisroel whipped cream and saying a bracha before licking it, I was rolling with laughter and before I knew it, I had forgotten all about the search for frum porn and began browsing through your site.
The next day was the first time in many months that I didn’t search for porn, in fact I spent the entire day reading dozens of posts and comments on your site. Then I found your videos and I was hooked. I really want to thank you, I know this must be a weird letter, I know it’s not TMI because I know your readers would love to know that your site reaches people in ways that they could never fathom. Who would have thought that Frum Porn would save my neshama?
Wow my imagination sometimes get’s the best of me