Forgetting to say ya’ale v’yavo sucks

One of the most enjoyable things to see in shul on rosh chodesh is when someone ends shemona esrei and realizes they missed ya’ale v’yavo, I always watch to se whether they say it again or just go with the flow as if nothing happened, I have never seen anyone happy that they missed ya’ale v’yavo, although I think they should be.

I don’t know about most people, but I love shemona esrei, maybe it’s the shuckling that does it, but I really like talking to God via shemona esrei (definitely my favorite prayer besides asher yatzar), usually in the woods and not with a minyan, but still whenever I am finished with shemona esrei I am always wishing it was a little bit longer (if I slowed down more it would be – but I have the brachas I relate to like modiim and the other one’s like v’lamalshinim that I don’t, maybe because in some circles I would be a heretic) I don’t want it to be like musaf on rosh hoshanah, but a bit longer would be good.

Hence, the reason I kind of like missing ya’ale v’yavo, like yesterday during mincha I missed it. I was in a beautiful redwood forest overlooking the pacific ocean and all of these grassy hills when I decided to stop for mincha, I usually stop when I feel so much gratitude to God for providing the beauty and awesomeness I am experiencing and this forested trail was really doing it to me.

I wasn’t happy at first about missing ya’ale v’yavo, but two things clicked. The thought that I would be able to say one mincha alone and one with a minyan was cool as well as the fact I would definitely be up on my 100 brachos, although I do wonder if missing ya’ale v’yavo means that your shemona esrei wasn’t counted and instead was a bunch of bracha livatala’s which means you screwed eh.

I should mention that if I miss it in early morning half awake shacharis, chances of me repeating shemona esrei are very slim.